bipolar chameleon?

have you ever been confused about yourself? like you sit there and deeply think about who you really are? what kind of person you are?
because recently some thoughts came into my mind, and apparently sit there for too long that it got me confused.

normally i'm a person who doesn't really care about what people think of me. but the other day, i took time to think. i recall all the possible comments that my friends or even strangers 'voluntarily' gave me about my personality. and it gets interesting.

i realized that each one of them had given me totally different comments one to another. some said that i'm a laid back person, some said i'm naggy, some others said i'm cheerful, moody, hardworking, lazy, perfectionist, messy, even self destructive! and many more totally different comments.
can you believe that? how can ONE person have that many traits at the same time, and even some of them are so conflicting each others. i am confused.

and the worst part is, i most of the time don't understand myself either. it's like i can't keep up with myself.
i know people change sometimes, but i change way too fast. and not just small changes, but big or sometimes even principal changes in a short period of time. just like that! how is that even possible?
until sometimes i think i'm a whole different person each day. it gets me annoyed...and concerned. :'(

one of my friend ever said to me "i can never know what's happening in your mind. what exactly that you're thinking, i can never ever guess."

i don't know if i should take that as a compliment, or is it just his way to simply say that i'm just plain weird? o,O
hmm...i don't know. but oh well, this is me. nothing else i can do except to accept myself.
in the meantime, i'll try my best to deal with my-confusing-self, before i make other people irritated and i ended up with no friends >,<

 

burnt orange cut-out shoulder top: Bardot, aztec mono-patterned skirt: unbranded, dark brown dusty army boots: NOVO, statement necklace: Diva, bracelets and ring: assorted, classic aviator sunnies: Rubi

Photos by: Dewi
Edited by: me