Friday, June 29, 2012

`live by the sun, love by the moon`

`live by the sun, love by the moon`
anyone of you has heard this quote before? last time i checked, this quote is by an anonymous. and as we all know, quotes by anonymous are always the best ones. agree?

this quote has a major, maybe even the biggest influence in the way i live my life.
we only live once, so why not living it brightly? just like the sun. give energy to anything around you.
independent. be your own source of energy. and happy. :) 

but when it comes to love and relationship, do it like the moonlight.
shines not too bright in the deep dark night, as it may hurt people's eyes and blind them.
do it just enough.
bright enough for us to see the person, and dim enough to cover some of the weaknesses... so it could let us use more of our sense of feel, not only our eyes.
keep some things as make it more interesting. just like the moon does. :)

floral shirt-dress: Minimal, light brown knit jumper: Dotti, sunnies & wedges: Rubi, bangles: Diva, necklaces: unbranded vintage, gold clutch: vintage. 

P.S:  next post will be my outfit posts and travel diary in Bali. hopefully i can sort out and edit the photos fast enough..hehe
oh, and so sorry that i'm still not able to reply some of the comments from the previous posts..because internet is such a pain here in  my parent's even took so long to upload a post. so when i'm back to my city, i will definitely reply and have a look at your lovely blogs ;)

Monday, June 18, 2012

bipolar chameleon?

have you ever been confused about yourself? like you sit there and deeply think about who you really are? what kind of person you are?
because recently some thoughts came into my mind, and apparently sit there for too long that it got me confused.

normally i'm a person who doesn't really care about what people think of me. but the other day, i took time to think. i recall all the possible comments that my friends or even strangers 'voluntarily' gave me about my personality. and it gets interesting.

i realized that each one of them had given me totally different comments one to another. some said that i'm a laid back person, some said i'm naggy, some others said i'm cheerful, moody, hardworking, lazy, perfectionist, messy, even self destructive! and many more totally different comments.
can you believe that? how can ONE person have that many traits at the same time, and even some of them are so conflicting each others. i am confused.

and the worst part is, i most of the time don't understand myself either. it's like i can't keep up with myself.
i know people change sometimes, but i change way too fast. and not just small changes, but big or sometimes even principal changes in a short period of time. just like that! how is that even possible?
until sometimes i think i'm a whole different person each day. it gets me annoyed...and concerned. :'(

one of my friend ever said to me "i can never know what's happening in your mind. what exactly that you're thinking, i can never ever guess."

i don't know if i should take that as a compliment, or is it just his way to simply say that i'm just plain weird? o,O
hmm...i don't know. but oh well, this is me. nothing else i can do except to accept myself.
in the meantime, i'll try my best to deal with my-confusing-self, before i make other people irritated and i ended up with no friends >,<


burnt orange cut-out shoulder top: Bardot, aztec mono-patterned skirt: unbranded, dark brown dusty army boots: NOVO, statement necklace: Diva, bracelets and ring: assorted, classic aviator sunnies: Rubi

Photos by: Dewi
Edited by: me